Friday, December 23, 2005

Amarantine

this year christmas is really sad for me...
feeling down, depressed, just blue...

the only christmas present i got is from big bird. it is really sweet. a watch. finally.

feeling gloomy... playing santa claus, but dont feel very appreciated. sighs... bought a new cd. yay!! enya's latest! double yay!!

listening to this song, Amarantine now... actually, it is this song that made me want to buy the cd. and when i read the lyrics, only him was in my mind. wanted to send him a text message of the lyrics, but on second thought after the last fiasco with him posting my sms on LJ, i really doubt him will appreciate the meaning of the lyrics. double sighs....

so here, i am posting it here... dedicated to him, labbit.

You know when you give your love away,
It opens your heart,
Everything is new.
And you know time will always find a way,
To let your heart believe it's true.

You know love is everything you say;
A whisper, a word,
Promises you give.
You feel it in the heartbeat of the day.
You know this is the way love is....

You know love may sometimes make you cry,
So let the tears go,
They will flow away.
For you know love will always let you fly,
How far a heart can fly....


mood: melancholy

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

... so cold it burns right through you, deep into your heart...

why?

why are you behaving this way?
why are you doing this to me?
why are you ignoring my call?
why are you not calling me back?
why are you not worried that i be worried?
why are you making me anxious?

what?

what did i do?
what wrong?
what went wrong?
what is happening here?
what is bothering you?
what causing you to behave this way?


the silence is killing me inside. it is killing the heart inside.
the heart is dying... stop killing my heart! stop ebbing its life force away!
you gave it breathe, and now you squezze the life out from it.
stop doing this!!


why are you doing this? i dont understand. how could you do this to me?
knowing well how i would feel.